Hello there, Rachel here...
This is my first post on my blog and because of that I'm gonna present myself and tell you a bit
more about the story of my life.
So first of all, I'm a 16 years old teen girl and I'm Portuguese.
As every teenage girl i have the world against me, well that's what i think...So I created this blog to help and to share my life problems with you.
The most important thing nowadays is appearance, society just thinks about judging others and don't even think about looking at their selves and I'm not talking about their look or style, I'm talking about their inside. People should careless with others and start looking at their self attitudes, their minds and their personalities.
I'm talking about this because the problem that has always followed me was about that, the good looking. When I was 5 years old i started to gain weight, the more and more as the years passed more i weighted. i used to weight 85kg/187lbs at 14 years old. i got bullied for years by classmates, people on the street, my brother (even without knowing he has bullied me a lot), my actual boyfriend (he has changed a lot btw) and even friends. they used to kick me, insult me, laugh at me...basically some used to hurt me physically and/or psychologically. I've started being depressed and even have thought about suicide...the most of my friends and family don't know about that and didn't know what I was passing through. This memories will never leave my mind but i think that has given me the strength to start thinking about myself.
I've started to think about who I was, how I was and who I wanted to be. I thought and thought and a big opportunity to change myself appeared...My brother found a really good diet on August 2014. I started dieting and working out at the end of summer 2014. it was so difficult...I've even wanted to give up a lot of times, but...I started noticing changes.
My brother was the only one who were really by my side, I'll never forget what he's done to me. He gave me the strength I needed to continue. I've started to love myself, to love every single detail of me, I've gained confidence, self-esteem, I've really gained love and ambition for more.
But nothing is perfect, I've started to think that I should lose more pounds faster, so I've stopped eating so much...and yes I've lost weight faster in 2 weeks or something, but i started to starving and needed to stop. fortunately, my brother and mother have noticed that i wasn't eating so well and talked to me.
I've realized conversation after conversation that i din't need to starve to lose weight. and started once more my diet and work out routine.
With my brother's help, the only that I've had because my mom was sick and my dad always drunk, I did it and in a year I've lost 25kg/55lbs.
Last year, I stopped my diet when I've started to dating my boyfriend on 11th October, 2015, and unfortunately I've gained weight, I've gained 10kg/22lbs. I am trying to diet the same as a year ago but I've not been strong enough to do it, I've started it a lot of times but has been too difficult again. I have no more my brother's help. Today I've started once more and I think it's time to have auto-motivation. I wanna feel like a year ago...wanna feel healthy, confident, and I wanna love myself again as once I did.
I've never dieted and worked out for others, I've never changed my look for others, I did it for me.
I hope this story can helps you are in a similar situation,
rach xx
